Wednesday, September 8, 2010

boggedy, bloggedy, bloggedy, blog ....


i'm trying to be different ... to change ... to grow .. to become what i'm meant to be (not that i know what that is) ... and my blog is suffering for it! how is it that i'm trying to be a writer, and i can't find the energy, time, or subject matter to write on my blog?

come to find out, i am a creature of habit ... i like to think of myself as spontaneous and adventurous and seat of my pants fun .... and i can be those things ... but i'm actually really good at rituals and routines and status quo .... and my rituals, routines and status quo no longer include an evening pause to blog ... for a couple years there, it felt wrong for me to go a day without touching base on my blog ... to write, cause i like writing .... and i wrote about art .. cause i like art ... but i lost that routine .... i've picked up some other routines ... but i need to work on finding this one again ....

so ... as i branch out and grow and change and try to be different ... i need to still blog, or that's what i've decided TODAY ...so blog even if i'm not painting, huh? or i need to work harder on working that painting time back into my busy life so that i have something to show you and blog about ....

here's my quote of the moment ... i'd read it before, but when i saw it today, it struck me as extra perfect:
so i wrote it out and stuck it by the kitchen sink so i'd keep thinking about it .... the most interesting thing about it , to me, is that i have NEVER had anyone in my life that put limitations on me ... my growing up family, my i'm the grown up now family, my friends, peers, colleagues, everyone has always been encouraging .... the only one who ever limits me is me ...

i'm going to go do some work and edit the novel i'm working on .... cross your fingers for me ....

3 comments:

cath c said...

that's fine, e. the more i write or edit, the less i blog, too.

grow, change, do what you want, it's all good. and we like to see your notes about it occasionally.

your kitchen note is speaking to me today - i think i started the quilt for toots because that was one of those, oh, cath, you can't do that things. well, i am doing it!

Anonymous said...

I love reading your kitchen nores!!

artmom said...

you are great as you are but we all have that impetus to change somehow even as ""seniors"! Just todyt, I was wondering how I could do something different with my art, but then decided I did not wamt to change it that much. It evolves over time as we do and we often do not see it! So go ahead and look for changes, but don't lose the you we all love!!!!