e: nope
ricki: why don't you face your fears and maybe you can overcome them
e: cause i can't think of any fears to overcome
ricki: you have to have fears
e: like?
ricki: like heights
e: nope
ricki: like public speaking
e: nope
ricki: the dark?
e: nope, i kind of like the dark ....
ricki: dancing in public
e: nope, i've been known to dance at target with my children ... sadly, they are all outgrowing that joy ...
ricki: enclosed spaces
e: sometimes in enclosed airless spaces i get nauseous ... like a poorly ventilated car ... but i just turn on the ac and i'm ok ....or open a window ....
ricki: bugs
e: not exactly, that's more of a learned helplessness ... i don't like killing them so i pretend to be scared of them so that someone else can "protect" me .... but by that example, i'm also scared of burned out lightbulbs, cause i always get someone else to take care of those too .... and taking out the trash ....
ricki: spiders
e: aren't those bugs?
ricki: nope, arachnids ... i sense your fear ....
e: when i was pregnant with twins i used to wake my husband in the middle of the night and tell him there were spiders in the bed
ricki: FEAR!
e: no, sleep talking ... there were no spiders in the bed, and i didn't usually remember having woken him up .... sometimes i scare him when i talk in my sleep ... i am more frightening that frightened, i suppose ....
ricki: i still sense a fear of spiders ...
e: nope, i actually try to catch spiders that are inside so that i can let them go outside ... they eat mosquitos, you know ...
ricki: snakes?
e: i actually like snakes ... we had a garter snake named rowdy when i was a kid ... it was striped .... we fed it frozen fish ... i've held lots of snakes .. that's actually odd to me .... but it's the truth ....
ricki: are you fearless?
e: nope, i don't suppose i'm that either .... but the fears i have had aren't things i planned ... like when mr.e.beck.artist had appendicitis i was ok with it ... until WELL past when the surgery was supposed to be done i was told he wasn't out yet because it had ruptured ... so i had fear for a while then .... and then when boy.beck.artist seemed to have appendicitis i had a titch of fear ... but we took him to the ER so fast that there was not chance of a rupture ... but i don't think that was fear ... it was worry ....
ricki: fear of failure? fear of success? fear of the unknown?
e: i am a planner so that whole unknown thing can bug me sometime ... but on the other hand, i like spontaneous ... so no, none of those ...
ricki: how about one of these letter a fears:
e: i LOVE the notion of auroraphobia ... the northern lights are on my bucket list ... so maybe they'll scare me .... i hear they are totally cool though ... i also LOVE the notion of asymmetriphobia ... fear of asymmetrical things .... i love asymmetry .... i must be an asymmetriphile ...and i wish my family had just a modicum of ataxophobia .... that'd beat the six pairs of shoes that are currently under the coffee table ....
ricki: ok ... let's move on to the letter B fears ...
e: pass .... but if my lovely readers want to see the rest of the list, they can go here, to phobia list dot com ....
so ... what are you afraid of?
1 comment:
i love this post, e.
i think i used to have a lot of fears, but eventually learned: whenever i hesitate on something, if i just wiggle my toe in its waters, or tickle it in the ribs, i am usual just fine with moving forward through it.
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